This past August, I premiered a new show, "The Mystery", at the 2017 Minnesota Fringe Festival. The show was a horror piece, a solo show in the style of HP Lovecraft, or Edgar Allan Poe. In it, I play an unnamed detective, who in a lecture style, shares with the audience the strangest care he ever worked on: A double murder that involves black magic, the supernatural, and romance.
Reactions were definitely mixed, though I ended the festival with 4 out of 5 stars. More importantly, the goals I set in creating the piece were achieved. I set out to create a 45 minute ghost story, and I wanted to know if I could engage the audience as more of a pure storyteller fashion. I believe I did that.
The piece wasn't without its challenges or deficiencies. After having some time away from the show, and mixing in the conversations I've had, or the reviews that were left, I feel the piece is mixing an added emotional component. I like to consider the "heart" of a piece, and this didn't have quite that. It was a very literary piece. At times in performance I saw folks closing their eyes and imagining the show playing out in their head. And that's okay by me. The story would make a better radio show or podcast than a live show, in retrospect. Unless I do a rewrite to more to it. It's difficult to describe exactly what I mean, but if the show has a future life, that would be the direction I head towards.
But Wait, There's More...
I think I'm going to put "The Mystery" up on the shelf however. Almost immediately after finishing, a new solo show started to fill me up. I'm not ready to articulate the "What" yet, but if "The Mystery" was missing a heart, this show will be much more from the heart. More in line with my first show, Origami Swans, which is a poetic expression.
I have a thing to be expressed, but I don't know how I'm going to express it yet. I know it's going to deal with relationships, break ups, grief, loss, depression. But hopefully with a lot of joy, humor, and delight. I hope to premiere it sometime in 2018, but we shall see.
Right now I also have a day job I really love, and I'm working really hard to continuing to grow and develop as well. And still being within my first year living in the Twin Cities, I don't have the social life I hope to have yet. I am so glad I have moved to St. Paul, and the gifts I have had here. I have been reminded a bit lately of what it was like moving to Los Angles. It wasn't easy, the first year. It can be lonely for a bit, and it can be difficult to develop that strong cluster of close knit friends who you see regularly. I have many acquaintances here, and I love my work family. And because I'm still a 4.5 hour drive to Grand Forks, I can see family and friends there every couple months.
I am so grateful for the support I received for the Fringe festival though. Old friends, new friends, coworkers, and clients at my job all came out to see the show. I am so grateful for what I have.
But I am also looking forward to the future, seeing what exists, and choosing conscious steps towards what I want.
PS. Anyone in the Twin Cities want to put up True West with me?